~Eien~

I was talking wit my friend, when she suddenly offline.

Myb she dc so i decided to wait..afraid she get angry..(o.0)”

N yet i still waiting in case she will online back.

Anyway sory .. ^^

Starting to rain now…n i got nothing to do.

Was in bad mood today.While i wake up n see someone using apul’s laptop. But seem he spamming a client, i decided to let him use the lappy a bit more.Am i being too nice not to say anything bout it, or stupid?

So, i go to my room..on the mp3 n lay down for a while..

Father call me yesterday, n another problem come… haihz..my sister really make my head want to explode.

And today mom call me, fortunately it was a good news.Shes going to open a restaurant. Shes dreaming for it long time ago.And i talk to her bout my future, n she said will help me talk to dad…

while i was lying down, i got this idea:

I prefer to be someone who never get wat they wanted, rather then those who always get wat they wanted but never sastified wit it, never get enough wit it.

Eventhough v always get thing that not as wat we want, v almost sastify wit it. Coz sooner or later, it turn out to be ok for us.

But in the other hand, those who always get wat they want, never sastify wit it.sometime they want more than wat they actually wanted.they will do watever it take to get a hold on it.Even they have to use other,hurt them, and some might even use poor person who never get theirs in order to archieve their goal. They become hunger, ungrateful n taking thing for granted.Some would never realize bout it, coz they being raise in world of “its ok…they will not mad, oh nvm u can have it 1st or ah its ok for me”… they will not realize that they are hurting everything around them..slowly.

Seem like ken and jali oredy finish play dotA. Well i skip the round, coz i got thing to do just now.

maa ii ka…watever..im gettin enough wit my life, those around me , they seem like trying to make me hate them.. n im trying hard not to hate them.

but now im decided to not even care bout it anymore, i dun want to care about anything around me, im sick of smiling while people make that dull face back to me, sick wit helpin others while they just happy n hoping i’ll help them more.. n bla bla bla..

i care only myself.

haha..sry for dragging u into this … gomen ne …XD sumtime v need to split out watever thing that felt uneasy..so v can feel more better the next day..^^

Ma ii ka~

its a bit late but i want to wish all of u:

Happy Maal Hijrah.

Happy Chinese New year.

Happy Thaipusam.

Happy Valentine day..

n last but not least..

Happy befday to protoz.

N hor..that one still not online yet..myb sleep? (~3~)v

see ya later.~

Zhu Wo Sheng Ri Kuai Le…sry and thank you.

Keep walking ahead until you find your happiness, pick it and hold it tight.

U need to feed it with love so it will grow and become a tree of happiness.

Watching the tree grow while feeding it, is a greatest thing that you ever had in your life. Until the tree mature enough to bear a beautiful and delicious fruit, that will be the happiest moment in your life.

But the tree need time to grow and yet it test your patient. Until you cant hold anymore and start feeding more love to the tree that its should have. At first its grow well , but then you will see that the tree start to wilt. The color change and leafs fall. You feel unhappy, blaming the tree and also the food that you gave. You feel like the tree does not want to accept your love. And everything turn out to be dull and dim.

Did you just realize that for a past few week, you was smiling happily feeding the tree.? Did you?…or you did not?

Past teach people to not step the same hole. You keep telling yourself be careful and slow down while driving a car, so that u wont run into the same hole again.

But one day, someone join you in your journey. Saying to you that no need to take the road that you take before, and asking you to follow his/her road. With smile his/her said “Its ok…no more hole, trust me”.

Even so you keep driving carefully and slowly.He/she start to feel unhappy..y?

Not because you drive too slow.

Not because you being so careful.

But because you dont believe them.

We know that past teach us to be more careful in future, but don’t mix it with others present and future.

Sometime we also need to think about their side. Bringing your past to them..somehow will hurt them, even so they didn’t tell you.

So please…try to be more open minded and tolerant. You been through hard times and they know you need a cure, but they cant give it to you if in the same time you hurt them even you dont mean it.

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P/s:more people will get hurt, if you don’t want stop the past.

Thing should run as it should be,if you break the law, the law will break it.

Cya ^^

Zhu Wo Sheng Ri Kuai Le

Zhu Wo Sheng Ri Kuai Le

“Wish Me Happy Birthday”
I know being sad cannot change anything
So
Let me be a bit honest
Honest
And there isn’t any uncontrollable lead offs
As long as you close your door
You need not take notice of anyone

Sitting in the empty box in a theatre by myself
Mobile
Let it rest for a night
Difficult
Want to cut off the frame of memories
The tears cannot fall after 12 O’clock

Happy Birthday
I say to myself
The candle is lit
Loneliness is cold
Happy Birthday
The tears have also melted
I have to thank everything you gave and took away
Still love you
With a bit of hatred
Still need time
To balance
The scar of passionate love
The frames are reborn
I have to thank you
Wish me happy birthday

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wo zhi dao shang xin bu neng gai bian shen me
na me
rang wo cheng shi yi dian
cheng shi
er mei you bu neng kong zhi de xuan xie
zhi yao guan shang liao men
bu bi li shei

yi ge ren zuo zai kong dang bao xiang li mian
shou ji
rang ta xiu xi yi ye
nan
xiang qie ge qie diao hui yi de hua mian
yan lei bu neng liu guo
shi er dian
sheng ri kuai le
wo dui zi ji shuo
la zhu dian le
ji mo liang le
sheng ri kuai le
lei ye rong le
wo yao xie xie ni gei de
ni na zou de yi qie
hai ai ni
dai yi dian hen
hai yao shi jian
cai neng ping heng
re lian shang hen
hua mian chong sheng
wo yao xie xie ni
zhu wo sheng ri kuai le

No more presentation!! hoho~

Finally is over ..T_T

Thx for those who help me~~

210+ pages of project proposal..and 10minutes presentation.

Thx you Sir Khairudin and Sir Mozac f3..

Yeah..times for maple

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P/s: im not ur “disposable lense”..sry

~Honey Dew oh Honey Dew~

Yesterday class was a lucky one..5 extra bonus mark..wuhuhu

Thx Sir for the question ^^~

This few days seldomly back home…i mean my room f3. Since me and Bai were under Sir Muzaffar thus we have to cooperate(hehe) regarding on the project paper.

Since then, i heard alot of rumor about me under “run away” case…

zzz..dont you guy learn how to ask me first before making those crap thing out ..F5!!

Maaa ii ka~~ it dsnt concern me..-_-”

Just finished the survey that Sir Yusren give us, and for the first time i would say that “i hate survey”!!!(out loud). 50+ survey to fill up..-_-” took me more then 2 hours.

Yesterday i had a breakfast at CFC, so i had a “vege” and it cost RM4 for the food..F5 haihz..1 month ago its only RM3.50 ..or its becoz the egg..o_0″?

Its 10am, i just take some rest from my nightmare’s project, i go around looking at dido fs. Suddenly i saw the Maple album, i took a glance at every pic there, somehow its look like DSD was having a great time before. Well, unfortunately i was not there haha…. the picture somehow make me realize that, gap is growing between me and the guild..they are moving far ahead,even for me trying hard to run and chase them,it seems like the distance would never decreasing.i should know it before, maybe it would be a right time for me to comfort my leg.Its time to stop all of this, no more run…heh ^^~

Better to have a whole party in happiness, then 1 person in a time.

Sooner or later i’ll slow them down, before that happen…leaving is a great choice ..at least for me.

The theory was the same one that i use on others, my real life friend…as the result, they will cursed me..haha nevermind…truth shall not be reveal..even you do, no one will believe it..right? ^^~

Living alone..learning other people behavior, being misunderstood by others, i would say “sudah biasa”.

Pity is not the best word to describe…i rather choose “lucky” for living like this.

10.36…. hungry~~ shall i go to town or eat at CFC…lazy to cook,the kitchen was totally in mess, no one wanna clean that…im not gonna do that, coz im tired of being “mr nice guy”, i will see within this few days, if no one wanna make a move…i guess i have no choice ..T_T Yyy me!!!?

I guess i will go to town, i need to peace my mind from all the “uncategorized events”. Maybe feeding the pigeon will be a great idea. Looking for some news stuff, shirt and the Gundam model..F3.

Why this few day i always think about “Honey Dew” O_o ?

It would be my “target” for today..!! *full spirit*

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Here some tips:

This is how to say in Japanese about what u want in simple way(of coz theres a complex one =P) :

Meron ga hoshii desu

I want Honey dew

Benkyo ga hoshikunai desu

I dont want study..f3

Okane ga hoshii desu

I want money

Hitori ga hoshikunai desu

I dont want to be alone ( in case u need it..lol)

Koibito ga hoshii desu

I need a lover (also for special case only..haha)

Cya~

I love everything that happen around me

My dateline is just around the corner.The presentation will be at 2.30pm as Madam Faezah will be my examiner..^^

My friend was playing a game and i come to him asking about something.He didnt reply me, i figure out that something happened just now in the game that make him bad mood.Thus i try to ask him again, friendly approach ~^^. But yet he still ignore me..hee~ i feel annoyed yet i cant do anything.I’m really piss off…

I cant stand people with that kind attitude…even with “i dont know” can be assume a polite way to reply instead of being silent.

While i was cooling down my anger…. i remember all the msg from my friend, i was thinking how many times that i ever answer their msg..or their testimonial from friendster…ym even email.

Then i realize that…i was doing the same thing on others. How they feel about that?…piss off? angry?…the same thing as what i feel just now..

For a moment i was stunned..suddenly my anger cool down rapidly.

I guess its true that everytime you do something on others, u will get the same price later…so simple but yet so true…

So i sigh by myself…sitting quietly..while replying Vio msg..eating some lasagnia.

My anger just now…suddenly i feel something wierd..

i laugh inside ..

Well its weird..but funny.

I think God can explain.

Theres a lot of things I understand,
And theres a lot of things,
That I dont want to know.
But youre the only face,
I recognize, its so damn sweet of you,
To look me in the eyes.

Its all right, Im o.k.,
I think God can explain,
I believe Im the same,
I get carried away
Its alright, Im o.k.,
I think God can explain
Im relieved, Im relaxed,
Ill get over it yet,

The scent of vaseline,
In the summertime,
The feel of an ice cube,
Melting over time,
The world seems bigger than both of us,
Yet it seems so small,
When I begin to cry.

Its all right, Im o.k.,
I think God can explain,
I believe Im the same,
I get carried away
Its alright, Im o.k.,
I think God can explain
Im relieved, Im relaxed,
Ill get over it yet,

Im so much better than you guessed,
Im so much bigger than you guessed,
Im so much brighter than you guessed.

Its all right, Im o.k.,
I think God can explain,
I believe Im the same,
I get carried away
Its alright, Im o.k.,
I think God can explain
Im relieved, Im relaxed,
Ill get over it yet,
Ill get off of your back,
I think God can explain.
I think God can explain.
I think God can explain.

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worry me not,coz im here wit this same feeling,
smiling for u,only ddnt show it..

just go on wit ur own life n i’ll wit my own.
forget each other not~~ ^^

Dont wake me..when im sleep.

When u feel annoyed by something or somebody u know make u angry…what will u do to overcome it?

Ignore it..lets time cure it.

People do have right to get angry, but theres a limit on it.

Just let it be…when the time come, guilty will come for forgiveness.

Maa…..u need to control ur anger, learn to manage it well, so u wont hurt anybody around you..anymore.

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BBQ again..~~~

Another piece of mind..

They say..

If you are starting to feel like you are powerless in your current situation at work, it will be easy for you to regain some control, today. If you want things to slow down, you can slow them down. And if you want to accelerate them, you can.

You’ve been hesitant to flex your muscles because you don’t want to make someone feel threatened or upset.

But that has got to stop.

You can’t limit your life based on someone else’s feelings of insecurity. You are in control of your own life.

so ka ??

Music is my life

Wish i can have internet line at my house .. T_T

I wanna say hi to all my friend out there..HI HI HI!!!

sry for not sending u guys any message….u should know wat type of "human" i am ..^^

my result already out and it almost make me choke…..thanx God for let me breath again….fuhhh

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How to color up ur life…while standing in the timid place?

The most important thing in my life is  music.Its play the mood of my daily life. its make me remember about everything that happen in my life…like a catalyst that push me forward.80% of my phone space were full with lots of mp3s assigned in different playlist for difference mood..^^

I usually spend some time go to town, walking freely while hearing the mp3.The best thing about my place is while sitting at the bus u can rest urself, coz the window will keep showing u the scenery of the beach followed by the smooth breeze that will pleased u at no time.Usually i will go to junkfood section…looking for something "rare" or have a can of green tea and keep walking through the town, watching people and some good scenery.Evening, i would have a sit at the middle of town..watching people feeding the pegions..the best scenery is while u going back u can see the horizon while the sun set itself down from the window of the bus..Usually a night before that, i’ll make sure that my battery is full charged.So that the reason for y sometime i need to go to town alone ^^…

Wats in ur playlist, its up to you..as long as it will make u happy..I suggest u to use some of Jason Mraz song ..most of his song influence my life.My matriculation life and my university life too..just now i read some of my friend post n suddenly it remind me about jason new song "im yours"…this song is nice .. last time i watch his special interview at singapore channel about this song. wat i like about him is he put everything that he got from his journey into his song. Traveling to different places, enjoying life and being positive in every aspect.Most of the lyric describing about our daily life which actually telling us some lesson to learn…

I’ve been spendin’ way too long checkin’ my tongue in the mirror
and bendin’ over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
and so I drew a new face and I laughed
I guess what I’d be sayin’ is there ain’t no better reason
to rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons

I think we should enjoyed thing that we like without worry,full care for the future but most importantly is the present..am i right?

but..evry people have different kind of idea to describe thing that they like..Wats good or bad about thing are base on people..^^

living in the labuan at the first time was really look like being cursed by the death.Most of my friend complaining about life here..so do I. ^^ So how can i able to survive in this kind of place? like i said before…i try to color up my life,when standing in the timid place.Do everything that can make me happy like going to town, having friend, go to beach..being positive. and lot more…until u lay urself on the grass while gazing to the sky and say " ..well its not bad at all…" ^^

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"u never see urself perfect, but people do"

Rotation…coz world is spinning.

Takziah to Elias..his father pass away last week. Lets pray for the safety of arwah in afterlife.."Al-fatihah".

His my close friend in SMAKJ and a captain in firebrigade elite squad. We lost contact for a years but I know hes doing well. ^^

As an older brother, prove to others that u can take over all the responsibilities.Be strong my friend.

And also lets pray that my friends father ..Hanis,currently finished an operation, getting better and well.

Both were my classmate in boarding school and i hope that God help them in everyway that possible,as a replacement of being my friend and make me happy all the time…. For that i believe.

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Oh n ya…for those whom currently "LI"…wish u luck and dont do anything stupid that will lead u to…"u r fired!!" hehe ^^

N to my Ms friend….jy jy ..dont chiong too much ar..F3

untill then ..c ya